I want to apologize to you for the pain i caused you.
i have been stupid as usual, and did the mistake that hurt you.
i am sorry, i shouldn't have tried to keep you alive. it was far more better to let you die and save you this pain over the years.
you were right every time you screamed at me to let you go, leave this world and go. and i was stupid and blind. stupid to acknowledge that you don't belong here and blind to see what was around me.
you are different than all around you, i should have foreseen the hell you'd be going through if you stayed. but i was blind. my only excuse is i wanted you to be happy. i had the hope that one day you will be rewarded and finally find your happiness.
i am sorry. i shouldn't have put you through this. i should have let you go. i should have listened to reason.
I cant turn back the clock to save you from all the pain you have gone through, but all i can do is to let you die, hoping you'd rest in peace.
you are free to go now, i wont hold you.
i will not stop you from dieing.
you have been very dear to me,
please forgive me before you die- my heart.