I feel very weired, tired, and suffer from allergy- but restless enough not to sleep.
this is my 2nd start today at the blog, I managed to move the blog to its new space, and managed to recover the "old new" look of it as well.
I dont know why I am writing this, but i just felt like wanting to share that I managed to finally control my accounts.
my new email is working. not properly as i wished, but it is working and will -hopefully- remain like that.
my blog is under MY control- so none would publish anything under my name.
hopefully all my friends, colleagues and family are informed that i am fine, nothing happened to my cousine, and it's all a lie.
i got myself a new facebook account, sent messages and requests to all my old list-hopefully none else would get harmed from this hacker.
Guess i can sleep now. what is mostly disturbing me is this allergy i got. dont know why. red spots all over my body and face.
but it was a successful day- elhamdollah
Showing posts with label Mesh 3arfah. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mesh 3arfah. Show all posts
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Loss, gain or a new start?
my hotmail account was hacked, and due to that i lost my contacts' list, my account, which i have created about 14 years ago.and all related accounts as well, such as the Facebook account, for example.
i have saved on that account many things over my past years, pictures, correspondences, contacts, files and so many things, which meant so much to me.
the past year alone i saved on that account so many things, which meant much to me. i didnt want to save them over my heard disk, flash memory or even CD- fearing they could get defected.
what i could trust was that space online, it cant get lost, and none has access to it but me.
Today they are all gone. i dont know if i will be able to access this account again, with what it had, or everything is just lost.
is it a loss, or is it a gain? I am gaining my freedom again, after being addicted to some things, which might not be as valuable as i thought?
if this is a sign for me to let go of many things i held dear to me, if this means they are not as preacious as i thought, and i was just putting in too much effort and value than they really are worth- then so be it.
I am letting go of things i thought were precious, and wanted to keep them forever.
there is no forever anyway.
I have to create a new account now, not sure over hotmail or will stick to my gmail and that's it.
Ya rab, i accept your judge and see your sign. Please help me through this. you are all i have.
i have saved on that account many things over my past years, pictures, correspondences, contacts, files and so many things, which meant so much to me.
the past year alone i saved on that account so many things, which meant much to me. i didnt want to save them over my heard disk, flash memory or even CD- fearing they could get defected.
what i could trust was that space online, it cant get lost, and none has access to it but me.
Today they are all gone. i dont know if i will be able to access this account again, with what it had, or everything is just lost.
is it a loss, or is it a gain? I am gaining my freedom again, after being addicted to some things, which might not be as valuable as i thought?
if this is a sign for me to let go of many things i held dear to me, if this means they are not as preacious as i thought, and i was just putting in too much effort and value than they really are worth- then so be it.
I am letting go of things i thought were precious, and wanted to keep them forever.
there is no forever anyway.
I have to create a new account now, not sure over hotmail or will stick to my gmail and that's it.
Ya rab, i accept your judge and see your sign. Please help me through this. you are all i have.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Benefits of having a dog and Benefits of being a bird
1. Benefits of having a dog:
- loveable: it loves you back, even more than you love it. it shows this love by act, NOT by words.
- hugable: hugging a dog makes you feel soooo warm from inside. you feel its hugging back when it throws its front legs somehow arround u and keeps its head at ur shoulder. you cant help but not keeping this hug forever.
- trustworthy: it never gives away your secret. never tells what you told it at your weak moments.
- honest: if it doesnt like someone, it barks right at their faces, loud and open. even if it is your best friend :)
- warm: a dog holds tons of warmth in it's heart. you feel it instantly when it "smiles" at you with those lovely big eyes. you feel an inner joy, because this warmth is true and meant only for you.
- sharing: a dog knows by instinct or feeling when you are down and it sticks to your side no matters how hard you try to push it away. it doesnt scream at your face, it doesnt blame you, it doesnt hurt you by leaving. it simply crawls down at your feet, sticking to you as glued, never leaving your side until you feel better. and actually you feel better because of this very special creature :)
- protective: a dog protects you by simply barking in faces of those who upset you. it feels right away that you need help and jumps to your protection. it doesnt hesitate or fear getting hurt. it simply protects someone it loves.
- the love and care of a dog is for as long as you both shall live. it doesnt change, it doesnt disappear, it doesnt go away if you loose your wealth, health, power or position. it is ture everlasting love.straight from the heart.
- a dog will jump to your help when you are sinking. at the moment when everyone else would leave, you would feel lonely and scared- it will be there smiling at you and telling you : i believe in you and i am staying.
- going for a walk with a dog is something really cheerfull. you'd talk the whole time wihtout getting breathless, getting all what bothers you off your chest and start breathing in a better way on your way home.
- a dog is a cheerful companion. it would play with you, listen to your singing and barking accordingly, it will get the ball and run with you along the beach. it appreciates your laughter :)))))
2. Benefits of being a bird:
- you are free
- you can reach the stars and the moon. not in dreams, but you can really touch them
- you have a short, fruitful life.
- the whole world is your home, there is no nationality needed.
- you can build your house anywhere, no papers needed.
- you dont have to work hard to live. your needs are as simple as you are. and you are happy wth the very little you earn.
- you are happy because of the uncomplicated life style you have.
- you dont need anyone's approval on your life style. its your nature and you are just being yourself.
- your kind heart doesnt know hate.
- you have a beautiful voice to sing with and give pleasure to the world.
- you have a very friendly nature, all given from Allah. that's why everyone loves you.
- your little heart is filled with nohting but good stuff: love, happiness, care
- your feelings are ture. if you need to scream you do, if you sing its a cheerfull song, if you fly its a freedom none enjoys but you.
- you never hurt anyone, most of the times it is you who are badly hurt from those selfish creatures arround you.
Don't think i have gone crazy because of this post. it is just i am stating my 2 sincerest wishes, which i know will never come true, and it really breaks my heart to know it:
wish to have a dog- big black german shephered.
wish to be a bird.
- loveable: it loves you back, even more than you love it. it shows this love by act, NOT by words.
- hugable: hugging a dog makes you feel soooo warm from inside. you feel its hugging back when it throws its front legs somehow arround u and keeps its head at ur shoulder. you cant help but not keeping this hug forever.
- trustworthy: it never gives away your secret. never tells what you told it at your weak moments.
- honest: if it doesnt like someone, it barks right at their faces, loud and open. even if it is your best friend :)
- warm: a dog holds tons of warmth in it's heart. you feel it instantly when it "smiles" at you with those lovely big eyes. you feel an inner joy, because this warmth is true and meant only for you.
- sharing: a dog knows by instinct or feeling when you are down and it sticks to your side no matters how hard you try to push it away. it doesnt scream at your face, it doesnt blame you, it doesnt hurt you by leaving. it simply crawls down at your feet, sticking to you as glued, never leaving your side until you feel better. and actually you feel better because of this very special creature :)
- protective: a dog protects you by simply barking in faces of those who upset you. it feels right away that you need help and jumps to your protection. it doesnt hesitate or fear getting hurt. it simply protects someone it loves.
- the love and care of a dog is for as long as you both shall live. it doesnt change, it doesnt disappear, it doesnt go away if you loose your wealth, health, power or position. it is ture everlasting love.straight from the heart.
- a dog will jump to your help when you are sinking. at the moment when everyone else would leave, you would feel lonely and scared- it will be there smiling at you and telling you : i believe in you and i am staying.
- going for a walk with a dog is something really cheerfull. you'd talk the whole time wihtout getting breathless, getting all what bothers you off your chest and start breathing in a better way on your way home.
- a dog is a cheerful companion. it would play with you, listen to your singing and barking accordingly, it will get the ball and run with you along the beach. it appreciates your laughter :)))))
2. Benefits of being a bird:
- you are free
- you can reach the stars and the moon. not in dreams, but you can really touch them
- you have a short, fruitful life.
- the whole world is your home, there is no nationality needed.
- you can build your house anywhere, no papers needed.
- you dont have to work hard to live. your needs are as simple as you are. and you are happy wth the very little you earn.
- you are happy because of the uncomplicated life style you have.
- you dont need anyone's approval on your life style. its your nature and you are just being yourself.
- your kind heart doesnt know hate.
- you have a beautiful voice to sing with and give pleasure to the world.
- you have a very friendly nature, all given from Allah. that's why everyone loves you.
- your little heart is filled with nohting but good stuff: love, happiness, care
- your feelings are ture. if you need to scream you do, if you sing its a cheerfull song, if you fly its a freedom none enjoys but you.
- you never hurt anyone, most of the times it is you who are badly hurt from those selfish creatures arround you.
Don't think i have gone crazy because of this post. it is just i am stating my 2 sincerest wishes, which i know will never come true, and it really breaks my heart to know it:
wish to have a dog- big black german shephered.
wish to be a bird.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Smile
This post has nothing to do with valentine's day,it just appears on this date.
For some singles this day is a sad,frustrating day, for some married people this day became meaningless,
for those in relation its a stupid day with 'gharamah'
Forget ba2a about Valentine and smile. just smile to yourself.maybe there is nothing to smile about, still, treat yourself to a smile.a kind, bright and loving smile- directed to yourself first, then to the rest of the world. It does magic to your soul.
you might be hopelessly in love,at least you have a heart that is able to love,while someone else has lost this ability.
Or you are jobless, yet in good health. Whatever you have,whoever you are,wherever you are- give yourself that very special gift: a cheerful,kind and bright smile.you deserve it.
No pics attched,post is short and unprepared.writing it from mobile on my way sailing from edfo to esna BUT I wanted to share this thought with you and share with you a smile I have for a reason I dont know. Bayeni etganent khalas,el tahyees eshtaghal mesh 3arfah leih.
For some singles this day is a sad,frustrating day, for some married people this day became meaningless,
for those in relation its a stupid day with 'gharamah'
Forget ba2a about Valentine and smile. just smile to yourself.maybe there is nothing to smile about, still, treat yourself to a smile.a kind, bright and loving smile- directed to yourself first, then to the rest of the world. It does magic to your soul.
you might be hopelessly in love,at least you have a heart that is able to love,while someone else has lost this ability.
Or you are jobless, yet in good health. Whatever you have,whoever you are,wherever you are- give yourself that very special gift: a cheerful,kind and bright smile.you deserve it.
No pics attched,post is short and unprepared.writing it from mobile on my way sailing from edfo to esna BUT I wanted to share this thought with you and share with you a smile I have for a reason I dont know. Bayeni etganent khalas,el tahyees eshtaghal mesh 3arfah leih.
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