i dont find a title, mabye becasue i can't describe it.
a very strange feeling. mixture of many feelings.
things i want to forget
things i can not forget
moments i love to remember
very painful, countless seconds that have passed, but are never over.
cruel moments followed by friendly care
a bundle i can not handle.
i can not get rid of
i can not deal with.
not with help of my doctor, friends, family or anyone
too harsh on me to deal with
i don't even know where to start.
Ya Allah, you are the only one who can help me through this.