When you love someone

When you have very special feelings for someone

tell them they are missed.
call and check on them
go visit
send flowers
write them an email
send an ecard
buy them a small gift
invite them over lunch/dinner/coffee or even a bottle of water
drive to their home just to "see" it
get them your favourite chocolate and tell them you wished they'd taste it.
download their favourite music, put it on CD and give to them
pop up unexpectedly at their office to say "Hi, i just wanted to check on you" in 2 minutes.
drive them home, to save them the hassle
send them a funny email, jokes, touching story or some caring words "just to stay in touch"
give a hand at hard times at work -if you can- to take off some load off their shoulder.
be the warmth they long to at a cold winter day
be the smile they look for when life is dark
be the gentle hand to tab on their shoulder, when life slaps them on their face
be the heart, feeling their pain-hidden behind the mask they wear
be the caring hand to gently touch their cheeks telling "everything will be allright again"
be the secure, tight hug, when they are lost.
be the loving partner/friend/sister/brother/mother/father - depends on what they need right now.
be the loving eye, seeing the whole picture, yet reflecting only the beauty in them.
be the gentle understanding of all their imperfections, faults, and mistakes,
be the reassuring tender smile, telling them  how much you love it all
get them an extremely expensive gift, to tell them what words couldnt express

When there is nothing more to do, just pack your things and ......
leave.

One fine day :)

i borrow this title from Zou. she used it at one of her posts.
It was last Saturday, I had agreed with Rawani, Zou, Ibraheem, Radwa and Hanan to meet for late lunch in a restaurant in Heliopolis.
none of us mentioned any special occasions, and i literally asked Rawani not to mention to them what this day was.
we met 3adi, got to the restaurant, started talking and ordering food. Zou, Radwa, Ibraheem and myself.
Then Rawani joined after some time and at last came Hanan for the first time to meet us, after coming home from Jeddah :)

As I was sitting my back to the entrance, i didnt see what was happening behind my back.
Rawani and Zou started the surprise, while Ibraheem, Radwa and Hanan were VERY calm !!!
I found the girls kissing me and wishing me Happy Birthday, saying they didnt forget!
it was all planned from the beginning. starting from picking up the day, pretending they dont know, and leave it till last second- to be a REAL surprise for me.

I was showered with gifts:

- Books from Rouni (who spent a week ya 7aram trying to make me tell what kind of books i like)

- Book and Headscarfs from Zou and Ibraheem (i know Zou chose the colours. sa7 ya ibraheem :)))))?

- key holder from Radwa (roody, i am using it together with my old one. it looks soooo nice and completely different from what i would have choosen :))

- Perfume and Zamzam water from Hanan ( Neisy, when you asked me what i need from Jeddah, i wished i could tell you to get me Zamzam water. but i didnt want to push you:)))

then followed by 2 songs: happy Birthday and yalla &alan Balan 7ayw abou el fasad. :)))).

I had a mixture of feelings at this point, yet i guess i was good enough at hiding them.

i was very happy for the quality time i am spending with them

i was very grateful for the care they showered me. I needed it badly on this day.

i was surprised of the incredibly warm arrangements of eveything and how i didnt doubt it for a second that any of them remembers my birthday- which made me go completely speechless.

i felt LOVED.

Thank you, dearest Rawani, for being my friend. the ugly experience we went through together, turned out to a beautiful and rare friendship :)

your beautiful mind, soul and smile, made it very hard for me not to wish you'd be a lifetime friend. and el7amdollah that everyday that passes gets us closer and we both enjoy it.

Thank you Zou ya 7abibty. my first impression of the charming,warm and smooth way of welcoming a person in your life - has never changed. i still see you as i wrote in my post for your birthday. you have an incredible way of making me feel welcomed in your life and circle.your warm welcoming hug in your wrods-even over phone. And I can't resist hugging you every time i see you.leih teftekry?????

i cant imagine you could be sherrirah when giving lectures :)))))

Thank you ya Ibraheem. like you- i have so much to say to you bardo, but for an unknown reason i go speechless. but i know that you know what i want to say.

looks like the 2nd half of 2010 would bring some joys and the sad days are just behind us :)

i will only tell you one thing: you are one fine person and testahel kol kheir :)

Thank you ya Neisy, ya 7abibty. if i ever have a daughter, i would love her to be just like you. with all your crazyness, fun and life loving spirit, openness, clear and straight forward way and your very pure way of "feeling" people and differentiating the good from the bad.I might want to kill her bardo when she gets home late, but i would be happy to see her enjoying her young life to the maximum :)

Thank you ya Roody for joining the group. you have the spirit of an artist, which i enjoy in your writings and loved when  i saw your graduation project. dont care about the 0 comments on your blog. we all expereince this and one day you will be showered by comments. but dont stop writing for you have talent and i really really enjoy reading what you write.

Guys, you have been there for me at one of the most difficult times of my life- few months ago- and here you are again proofing to me the fine quality of persons you are.
thank you for caring to know when is my birhtday,
thank you for marking your calenders or just remembering it
thank you for the troubles you have gone through preparing all this
thank you for your support and warmth, which helped me to overcome the bitterness and sadness i felt on that day.
thank you for being my friends. you are a blessing i so much needed, which i would never trade for anything inn this world.

Allahoma lak el7amd 3ala ne3amak

Tuesday, 13th July - reliving the joy of Saturday 10th of July 2010.

Today with Joe

Having Joe spending today with me gives the day a very special taste.
the world was different before he came
he made such a difference in my life, in those few days he spent with me.
when he grows up he won't remember - of course- anything about today, and I won't mention it,
But I am documenting it here, whenever he wants, I would let him read this.
Joe, you made today the most beautiful day i have ever had.
you were sleeping as the day begun, I came closer and gave you a  light kiss at your cheek.
This is all what i needed to do to enjoy today, and see it in a different light.
Thank you sweetheart for being such a lovely baby.
Please know that your auntie loves you so much, even if she never tells you this in words.

Don't let these moments slip away

My dear friend Barry just posted something lovely as always.
please check this link.
I promise you a quality time of reading :)
Barry, you are a treasure :)

http://life-in-quotations.blogspot.com/2010/07/on-valentines-day-2002-katie.html?

feelings

sometimes i feel lonely
sometimes i feel a sadness inside my heart
sometimes i feel anger from those around me
sometimes i feel happiness deep inside me
sometimes i feel gratitude for what i don't have and for what i have - it is all meant to be anyway.
sometimes i feel cheerful
sometimes i feel calm inside
sometimes i feel love is springing from my heart
sometimes i feel that my heart is full of love for any creature on this earth
sometimes i feel injustice is killing me
sometimes i feel that some sort of negative feelings are suppressing any sort of life inside me
sometimes i feel like screaming
sometimes i feel like crying
sometimes i feel free like a bird in God's open free sky
sometimes i feel trapped
sometimes i feel prisoned in my own dreams
sometimes i feel scared
sometimes i feel very confident of myself
sometimes i feel homeless
sometimes i feel "family-less"
sometimes i feel "friends-less"
sometimes i feel lost

What i never ever felt is hate towards anything or anyone.
elhamdollah for this

Adham's birth

Adham and Mariam are playing with Roy- our dog- just few meters away from me. i was watching them, and somehow my mind drifted away to the day when Adham was born.
It was early morning on a Thursday, when Kareem drove me to the hospital. he stayed at my side the whole time, till our son was born. holding my hand, soothing my anxiety and sharing my pain and happiness.
the first moment our son had in this world was in my arms, with his father holding both of us.
I had a mixture of feelings: happy, secure, scared, tired, satisfied, but above all deep gratitude for what Allah has just granted me. A loving husband and a healthy child. this is all what i ever wished for.
what could a woman possibly want more?

We agreed on naming him Adham. both of us love the name.

Kareem stayed with me until i was released from the hospital, never leaving my side. somehow he felt how much i needed him. in a new and more intensive way, i needed his support.
i was scared to do any mistakes and harm our child. his smile and helping hand were there to ensure me it is ok and everything will be fine.

our first night at home with Adham he kept hugging me almost the whole time. as if he felt that he was our shelter.
the moments i held Adham in my arms were incredible- but the moments Kareem held me were just indescribable feeling.
Home was in his arms. warmth was his touch and safety was his heartbeat when i leaned against him.

I still remember how i felt right before falling asleep on that night: deep, solid and never ending love for my husband.

"Mummy, have you seen that?" my little champ came running to me, smiling and excited about something that just happened.
i didn't want to disappoint him by saying that i was miles away. i just held and kissed him.

Ya Allah, how can i ever thank you enough for what you gave me :)

kids - 2

hug your child. it is the most valuable gift you could ever give to it.
your hug make it feel secure, loved and cared for.
this is all what it needs to grow up in a healthy way.